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This is not a weight loss blog, it's my blog and I talk about whatever I want including weight loss and food and boys and running and drinking and lots of pictures of myself. I have little to no filter when it comes to the things I say, I am kinda opinionated, so sometimes I'm awkward, but I'm pretty awesome.
Height: 5'1"
HW: 174 lbs
LW: 142 lbs (Sept/2011)
CW: 172.4 lbs (3/11/13)
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Comparisons of myself. Likely to be taken down at some point soonish.
First 2 pics were taken in 2011. 3 months apart from each other. I did...
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IM Texas recap
I completed my first ironman on Saturday, in The Woodlands, Texas. I knew it was going to be a tough day, and it definitely was. I was...
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Me and some ladies in the Walmart auto center (only time I go to Walmart). Too bad I didn’t catch the guy working behind the country. He was...
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When you’re having a rough day and a dear old friend sees you, gives you a kiss on the forehead and tells you that you’re beautiful, it really can...
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Starting over.
I feel like I’ve said this a million different times in a million different ways, and I know you guys will probably read this and...
This one’s for the guys.
For too long I have given advice to my male friends consisting of “she’s not interested”, only to see them continually chase said estrogen. Turns out, SHE WASN’T INTERESTED. Therefore, I have decided to expose these “outs” girls use as a way to minimize hurt feelings (no, we DON’T want to be honest with you, it’s too awkward). So do us (and you) a favor, guys, and instead: TAKE THE HINT.
“Sorry, I’ve been busy!”
It’s an excuse. Women are busy, don’t get me wrong, but the secret is…WE ARE AWESOME AT TIME MANAGEMENT. If we want to see a guy, we will expand the particles of time and piece him into our day (we have that superpower). Unless the woman you’ve met is (a single) Michelle Obama, she has time…and will usually ditch her friends to make it so.
“I’ll have more time to hang out in a few weeks!”
No she won’t. You just aren’t priority enough for her to rearrange her schedule and make room. Another secret? GIRLS PLAN AHEAD. So unless she tells you a specific day and time, you ain’t seeing her. I can guarantee most women know what they’re doing for Christmas by July, so the fact she can’t commit to a day in the same month should be an indicator to move along.
“I’m not looking to date right now!”
She means, “I’m not looking to date YOU…at all”. Trust me, a girl will make it known she’s yours. Doesn’t matter if you’re moving to Tahiti for six months, this love-stoned (thanks JT!) girl is going to try and make it work. We LOVE to try, because females have an insane amount of hope in our veins (despite getting it stomped on by losers). If she thinks you’re worth it, she will date you, and date you hard.
“You’re such a good friend!”
This would appear to be the most obvious, but you guys still push it, don’t you? Just because a girl thinks you’re a “good friend” does NOT mean she wants to date you, sleep with you, or really, do anything borderline “couple-y”. Guys need to realize their female friends have boundaries, too, regardless of the length they’ve known each other. So stop being touchy-feely in public to make people think you’re dating, give your girly friends some SPACE! We’d appreciate it…and our boyfriends would, too.
“Hahaha! LOL! LMAO!”
Okay, so you have good comedic timing, but you’re not Vince Vaughn. Just because a girl laughs at your jokes doesn’t mean she’s interested in more. It means…wait for it…she thinks you’re funny! (Shocking, I know.) Girls want someone to make them laugh, but they also want to be attracted and connect with the guy. If she laughs at your jokes while you two are on a Disney cruise or laying in bed together, then you should already have your answer (and be pretty damn happy).
Guys, we commend you for wanting a relationship, but you must read the signs. Don’t waste more than a week on someone who says these lines and doesn’t follow through. If a girl likes you, she’s going to bug the shit out of you. Keep truckin’ along until you find someone who makes herself available, enjoys your company, and laughs at your jokes (naked AND clothed). It doesn’t get much simpler than that. Xo
Sorry to say that..yep. Have said all of this. I do need to learn to have the courage to flat out say “I’m not interested” though..
I HATE BEING CALLED CUTE.
I DO NOT NEED YOUR VALIDATION. YOU ARE NOT MY BOYFRIEND AND I BARELY KNOW YOU IT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE FOR YOU TO SAY THAT TO ME.
Look at those time stamps. I’m bad at cropping so there’s repeats. But still. I hate when people resend texts like I didn’t get them. My not answering doesn’t mean that I didn’t get it and doesn’t mean it’s going to make me want to text you.
All of a sudden these guys have started talking to me and calling me cutie and cute and whatever and like I for real don’t want to be dating anyone. Unless they’re like, a runner and would run with me places or something. Because I don’t have the time or energy to go out with guys outside of that realm.
I know I’m interesting and whatever, but I just don’t want/shouldn’t be distracted right now. Every time you don’t want guys to like you, they come running, when you want them to like you, they run..away.
I don’t really like texting much at all.. Let alone texting dudes that just call me cute and don’t bring me any more conversation to work with. He seemed nice enough but, no..
I don’t want to be a jerk though. I really don’t like blowing people off. AHHH what do I do? I know this is just a stupid girl problem. Boohoo boys like me, poor me. But for real. Ugh.
Went to a Colorado Rockies baseball game. With Wes and his uncle. We were really stinking close to the field. I literally was like a foot away from getting hit in the face with a baseball. Also I ate cotton candy and a brat and fries and drank beer. This was my first baseball game being old enough to drink (haven’t been since I was like 10)
Fountains go off for home runs and they got two right as I was leaving. Rockies owned the Mets.
You receive a message on DailyMile from a person whose name matches the name of the ex of yours from last year that treated you like crap…
And the message turns out to be a message from said ex apologizing for treating me so bad and saying that I didn’t deserve it.
He had to like, stalk me to find my DailyMile, since I had him blocked from Facebook.
Add on to the fact that said message was sent yesterday afternoon (only read it today), and last night when you were out at a bar with friends you ran into this ex but pretended not to see him.
…and this ex is supposed to be in Japan. And you’re typically never caught dead in that bar, but the one time you go…
So yeah…that just happened. Wes apologized. And told me he was here for the week and gave me his number in case I wanted to talk.
What do I do with this information (my sister says to call him, but what would I even say)?
I deserve to be someone’s first choice.
I deserve to be someone’s first choice.
I deserve to be someone’s first choice.
I deserve to be someone’s first choice.
Just… Reminding myself of that. Everything is good. Just a reminder.
The boy that I was seeing broke up with me Friday night. We were almost at 2 months.
He wasn’t mean about it and made sure I knew it wasn’t anything that either of us did, but he said he just didn’t feel like there was much of a connection between us.
And I get it. I mean we didn’t have a whole lot in common, and plus, I don’t know how much I can handle dating an army guy in the barracks where I could only see him on weekends. I didn’t really want just a weekend boyfriend. I liked spending time with him, but I think I just enjoyed having someone to spend time with and cuddle with and stuff. He’s a truly good guy, never said anything mean or disrespectful to me, I never questioned his motives.
I mean, if I really look at it: did I really expect to find love from a guy I met at a bar that I made out with upon only a few minutes of meeting him? He definitely surprised me by being so good to me, but in all, probably better he did it sooner rather than later. If he wasn’t that into me I wouldn’t want to force him into anything.
I have no ill will towards him, whatever girl ends up with him will be very lucky. Even after he broke up with me and we stopped talking, he later texted me letting me know if I needed to talk that I could call him that he’s there for me. He’s only the second guy ever that I’ve dated that has ever treated me so well. Even though we probably won’t hang out again, we decided to stay friends. It’d be nice to maybe spend time together in the future, just not anytime soon. I cried on Friday but since I haven’t cried, and I think I’m feeling better now. I have really good friends to lean on, and they’ve definitely made me feel better during this whole process.
My lesson: dear god stop going out with military dudes (but its sooooo difficult to do in a military town with 5 bases!).
Probably the least unfortunate looking picture from my birthday weekend. This is from Friday night, when we actually celebrated my birthday. It’s me and the boy again. He’s still around which is nice.
Today is my 23rd birthday, I haven’t done anything today but sleep and watch tv, but I have a feeling it’s going to be a good year :)
Also, it’s KimiJoyB’s birthday today too! :)
Hey tumblr, I know, I haven’t been around much.
Promise nothing interesting has really been happening.
However, here is a picture of me from last night with the dude I have been seeing. We were at a college hockey game.
Anyway yeah he’s really nice and I’ve seen him every weekend for the last month since I’ve met him. So…yeah. I really like him.
- Like him a lot.
- Probably like him too much.
- Show too much interest probably.
- Lose interest because he clearly does not care.
- Genuinely lose interest, stop texting him.
- That fucker will come back.
- Guys are so fucking stupid.
- Gonna be alone ‘cause that’s what I need/want.
Went to my favorite place tonight! Jack Quinn’s! Did the club 5k with fellow lovely tumblr Lindsay, and it was awesome!
Also, I matched today with exception of my beer socks! And I still am pretty in love with the bouncer there I realized, ahh I can’t tell if he’s just friendly or likes me, I’m hoping likes me but I’m pretty sure he’s just nice.. A girl can dream though, right?
Anyway tonight was awesome. So excited that the sun is starting to set later again! I want to run in the daylight!
What’s the least embarrassing and non crazy person way to ask “hey did you just end things/break up with me?”
Because I think this guy just did. I asked him to hang out, and he said “I’m eating alone after a 14 hour day then I’m going home and going to sleep and repeating that to Sunday”.
That’s breaking up with me right? Even though we weren’t really together. He just wants to be left alone. My favorite necklace is at his place and I need it back.
I went out with this dude from okcupid on Thursday that I originally started talking to only as a joke, and I’ve seen him every day since with the exception of today, since he’s off on a work trip. I kinda really like him. He’s smart and super attractive. And he asked me out on a second date, which never happens so I’m happy about it.
I’ve been working out. Been pretty good about it.
I’m starting to see a very SLIGHT outline of my abs again. I’m super excited.
I’ve also been super good about my dental hygiene with the exception of two nights when I was at that new guy’s place. Brushed, flossed, and rinsed and I’m almost out of mouthwash. I’ve never finished a bottle of mouthwash! I know, I’m awful.
Also, I have lost 4.2 pounds since my last weigh in on MyFitnessPal. Being responsible with working out and stuff is fun when there’s visible changes.
This scene from “What Happens in Vegas”.
Junk punch. I love it.
And so perfectly describes how I’m feeling right now.
Harry Potter world boy told me he was “considering” dating this girl over in Qatar. I decided to avoid his facebook for awhile to see if things would calm down. I went back on his facebook today. There are dozens of pictures of them together, and disgustingly cheesy messages of them proclaiming their love for each other. When they’ve known each other for two months. I knew we weren’t going to do the long distance thing, but I was still, you know, sort of reserving my feelings for him.
He said, 3 months ago, “I’m not ready for a relationship right now.” This girl’s family is writing on his facebook congratulating them for being together.
I always forget that “I’m not ready for a relationship right now” means I’m not wanting a relationship with YOU.”
I even told him, he and I vowed to always be honest with each other. When I became suspicious of this going on, I asked about it. He told me. Clearly underplayed it. I told him, I called him out: “If you start dating this girl, I’m not going to be happy with you because you SAID you weren’t wanting a relationship.”
I didn’t message him earlier this week because I didn’t have electricity. He emails me several times asking me where I’ve been that he misses me and thinks I’m mad at him. I just didn’t have internet. And I come back to this.
We’ve been friends. I really like talking to him. But, I feel betrayed.
And I’m not perfect. I’ve hooked up with other guys since him, but emotionally, no. I hadn’t felt this way before. This guy was the first one that I could be with not just in the bedroom or whatever, but we could spend time together and do things. He even now keeps telling me about what adventures we should go on when he gets back. And I’ve been able to have discussions with him, be completely honest with him about my feelings always, and now it’s like, what. This girl he met, unless he marries her, which who knows at this point, it probably won’t last. He’s in the Middle East until July. After that it’s over. Though at the rate they’re going, they’ll probably be married with kids by then if they continue to be predictable.
And this isn’t a friend zone thing. Even though I feel like that’s where I’ve been put. Because I’ve always made my intentions clear. I’ve always told him how I felt about him. And until he met this girl, the feeling was mutual.
I’m really hurt right now. I’m really angry. And I know this will pass, but right now all the insecurities are coming up:
Why has he STILL not posted the pictures we took from when we were on vacation together?
Am I EVER going to find anyone as good as I thought he was? He was one of “the good ones.”
I thought I was maybe finally getting away from the just sleeping with guys thing without a relationship, but yet, somehow, I keep ending up being that girl even with the guys that seem to always be getting into relationships. Why am I always the bad exception?
I’m too fat to date.
Why are guys always ashamed of me?
How is it that guys always say how great I am yet never want to date me?
I’m placing too much significance on this. But this is how I’m feeling. I normally don’t go through really intense emotions, and this week with all the other stuff going on around the world and in my life it’s just all coming to me at once.
tl;dr: Harry Potter world boy that I was kinda in love with is now dating someone after saying he wasn’t ready to be in a relationship with me and it makes me feel like shit. And watch the video it’s hilarious.
to worry about boys.
Really. I don’t even have time to do everything I want for myself, let alone to concern myself over the opposite sex.
All I really care about is sleeping at this time.
And plus, I should appreciate the boys I do get to cuddle with hang around that aren’t on the other side of the world. I’ve got enough of them that are nice to me.
I’m going to go sleep my frustrations away. Or study my frustrations away. Whatever. I have shows to catch too anyway. Pshh.
Self-respect won’t have you calling your girlfriends, debating and analyzing. Self-respect won’t keep you warm at night. It won’t make you giggle in the morning. There’s no euphoric high in behaving with integrity. Self-respect is an investment. It is something you add to the bank of self over and over. You will never see an immediate benefit, but what you will see, years later, is how people respect you when you respect yourself.
Forever reblog.
(via datebynumbers)
