I posted a blog entry on that date that read:
I’ve decided I want to train for that 10 mile race in June. I encountered an article in the Runner’s World magazine website that helps you train for it in like 6 weeks. It’s pretty good considering I have like, a little over two months to train for it. Hope my body can take it. I’ve never run more than 5 miles at a time, and in the plan you up to 6 miles by the end of the first week o.O !
Fast forward to this year, and “that 10 mile race in June” is the race I’m doing this weekend, the Garden of the Gods 10 Miler!
I found that pretty cool. I saw Becky’s post about looking back on running and how far she’d come inspired me to look back at my stuff. Back then, a ten miler was a really big deal, now, 4 marathons, 2 half marathons, and a bunch of 5ks and long training runs later I’m doing this “measly” 10 mile race, that, ironically enough going by my post from three years ago, my body technically can’t take. Or shouldn’t, at the very least. I remember just starting running and no worries about injuries came to mind and the hardest thing to do was run.
Now, the hardest thing for me to do is NOT run.
This has been an eye opening experience.
Things I like about Whole 30:
It makes me cook more.
I’ve tried more vegetables and new recipes and things.
I’ve had no stomach issues while I’ve been on it.
My skin’s gotten (somewhat) clearer.
Things I DON’T like about Whole 30:
I didn’t eat enough.
I got exhausted of cooking
I would spend so much time after long runs waiting because I’d have to cook food and would go hours and hours without any food after a long run- so bad.
It’s not a sustainable way to live. I am not going to give up pizza forever. Or many other things. I mean, I confessed to Liz the other day that I cried because I wanted bread so bad. That’s messed up. No one should cry over something so stupid.
Stipulations about how I did Whole 30:
I stayed pretty on it, with the exception of this last week I had pierogis because I was out with my nephew and I had beer on the 7th (2) and 9th (1). Also, I did not stop using my running energy things because yeah that wasn’t gonna happen my stomach’s really sensitive. So I had Hammer energy gels and red gatorade after runs (I tried using apple juice post run once and that stuff gets HOT it was nasty). Everything else I was good, I also ate as much fruit as I wanted because fuck that I’m not gonna restrict my fruit along with everything else. I think that’s why maybe I didn’t have so many issues with low sugar.
I didn’t deal with TOO many cravings, but I did turn down a LOT of food. It was a little depressing. I am not going to finish whole 30, I knew that this was not gonna stick around. However, I am going to work on eating moderately with all the bread and stuff, not completely denying myself of everything but just trying things, and be watchful of portions because I can eat a ton if I’m not paying attention. I also want to keep eating a lot of vegetables, because they’re really filling and amazing. Other things I’ve realized is that yeah my body definitely does not like dairy, like at all. Which is sad but something I should probably stick to avoiding.
I am stopping this Whole 30.
I like the IDEA of paleo, but in no way is it feasible to do for the rest of my life. I did this to show myself I could. I did. That’s done. I have self restraint hooray! My issue with eating “normally” is that I’ll literally eat all the things without a plan. Restrictions are great for me because I’m a great rule follower. Without rules it’s anarchy in my body. From now on I think I’ll just have to do like, meal planning for myself to keep me from going crazy on everything.
I’m quitting Whole 30 because I am literally feeling UNHAPPY over food. Food is an inanimate thing, why should it upset me? Because I put too much focus on it. Yes, I’ve lost weight, but it’s probably been water weight or if it is fat loss that’s great, but..no. I’m worried this much restriction will make me binge eat all the things. I’m going to try to be careful, and I’m still going to try to eat a ton of vegetables. I keep going back to that post Brenna made the other day about food and dieting. I don’t want to beat myself up BECAUSE I ATE FOOD. I feel bad for “quitting” something, but honestly, I don’t care that much. So I did whole 20-ish instead of whole 30. I feel like doing this has made me realize that I can do what I set my mind to, but when I’ve realized this is just too much. Especially with all the running I’ve been doing.
tl;dr: I’m quitting whole 30 because it’s making me crazy.